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is that a motherfucking homestuck reference in the year of our lord 2018

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Tell me this: what kind of person is he? How does he display his affection towards you? Verbally? Physically? With gifts?

he's okay what's actually insane about all of this is that i've met actual dozens of "versions" of this guy ( the multiverse is really wild, btw ) anyway i've met so many and they all have stuff in common but the one i met here is just different and so that was the first thing and man i don't know he's so fucking smart and he makes it really easy to give a shit about whatever he's talking about even when i have no actual idea of what he's talking about and he knows how i like my coffee and sometimes he steals my waffles in the morning but usually we just share and his sense of humor is dumb and quippy like mine so we just sit around laughing a lot of the time which in a place like this? is pretty yeah and he cares so much about people he just wants to do right by everyone all the time and it's going to get his heart crushed one day but that's part of the job i guess

[ yikes easy gwen we're trying to hide the stephen-is-a-superhero-thing here!!! ]

and he's kind of gorgeous like he's such a doofus and he makes the dumbest expressions, but his whole.. face is great and his hair is so curly when he gets out of the shower and apparently that's a thing i'm into!!! like, he has these moments where i like actually break stuff in my hands because he's so attractive and he has no idea and that's NOT what makes him beautiful ( hah, that's a one direction reference sorry i'm actually really sorry about that one ) but it's really stupid and funny trying to explain that to him he's ridiculously sweet and he says shit that i don't think he even realizes is sweet? or meaningful? but it is like he just remembers those weird things that people generally don't remember so it's really fucking awesome when someone does and he lets me snuggle up with him even when he's trying to work on something and god he's a great kisser so, physically? yeah that's all really fucking awesome and i trust him more than anybody else possibly more than robert now that i think about it but that's not really fair i guess maybe it's just that i trust them in different ways with different things eh i'll unpack that later affection is a weird thing for me i usually can't tell when it's real or when i'm reading into things but with peter i don't care? i don't feel like i have to translate anything at least i didn't until this whole kitten thing happened now i don't know if i misread the whole thing or what

Believe me when I tell you I'm very intimate with the oddness of the multiverse.

In any case. The novel you sent me certainly is indicative your feelings are intense. And no, I would say you haven't misread things. I imagine he doesn't have much experience separating sex and feelings; it's easy to get them muddled at all, never mind in a place like this.

we should definitely talk shop about that sometime because not a lot of people do outside of this place, as far as i know intense is a strong word okay fine they're intense but i like to think i've been pretty cool about it up until recently honestly i don't usually have an easy time separating the two either i mean there's definitely people here that i hooked up with and haven't had feelings for but but i might've stood a chance at not getting all crushycrushgagaloopy if i hadn't kissed him maybe okay that's probably not true but i can pretend it's true

I wouldn't pretend. Self-honesty is important. It's easier to get things done when you aren't suffering under delusions of what you are or what you feel.

In any case: who is it I'm speaking to, precisely? If we're to discuss familiarity with the multiverse, it seems vital to know one another's names.

Edited 2019-04-17 02:37 (UTC)

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