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i haven't spoken to you what awaits me when i return home, but know you'll be doing me a great service

she seems very capable but i'm not sure she likes me so i'm going to have adrian ask her

as far as pain goes, i care little if it hurts or not as long as it gets done, at least this will be of my own volition

no one's tried to remove them before so i don't know; with a master in place i can't even attempt it

without integra here to tell me no i'm inclined to believe i'm capable of allowing the research to happen

whatever they did to us at the camp removed them temporarily, but also removed all my powers, as we both saw

Yes. I assume they put some kind of blocker in place, but that's neither here nor there. Can you tell me how they were put in place?

[She'll address that dire hint to his future later, but first things first.]

i wasn't cognizant for a lot of it because abraham kept me staked and starved while he was working on them for his 'safety'

what i really wish i had was access to his notes; he was absolutely meticulous while he did his work

i know he tried to work with only science at first, as a doctor, but that alone wasn't enough and he turned to the occult to bolster it and work against my own darker aspects. the end result is a strange amalgamation that works in tandem--either one without the other would eventually fail at holding me

when the devil's on your side, etc

I see. Then I believe Sypha and I will have to do our experiments together, which isn't necessarily a bad thing. I'd like you to write down what you remember of the process over the next few days-- even if it isn't much, even if it's snatches of memories or suspected things.

What awaits you when you return?

i'll do what i can but you're right that it definitely won't be much

well, originally i intended to die when integra does, but i can't die anymore so when she passes i'll be handed down to the government to continue the work of hellsing

except i know the men i will be left to and they're too frightened to hold my leash: they'll lock me away again and let me rot indefinitely

I see.

Killing them wouldn't be an option?

with her passing me on to them, they would hold power over me as my masters so i would be incapable of harming them

unless of course my seals are broken when i return

so you see my issue

Well, then.

That's a far better incentive. Someone once told me to stay positive; you having the power to kill them instead of you being helpless is a much better way to think of it.

oh my end goal here is absolutely to eat all of them as soon as they try anything

i'll still follow integra's orders, but because i want to

Naturally.

Speaking of women you're fond of . . . I met a young woman I suppose I'm inevitably going to think of as my sister. Seras is charming.

oh !

[ he used a punctuation! this is exciting! ]

i'm happy you two have met

she's grown so much since i turned her, she's a good girl

She's a grown woman, Alucard.

But yes. We've met. I can't say as I know her very well yet, but I look forward to it, which is rare enough for me.

she's 19 and also my daughter and i'm six hundred years old

does she know you're my fledgling also or has it not come up yet

I'm thirty-odd years old, you don't call me that.

And yes. A bit. She was the one who called me her sister, actually, she was very enthused by the idea.

I admit, I was pleasantly surprised.

see i have the feeling you'd gut me if i called you 'good girl' and when i met seras she was just 'policegirl' to everyone for a long time

i'd say long story but really she was just the fresh meat around hellsing

that sounds like her

i'm glad

You're right, I would. Although knowing you, you might just enjoy that.

Tell me of her. "Policegirl" is not much of a description.

you know me so well :)

she was the last person standing on a mission i went on--a vampire had taken out an entire town and all attempts at stopping the situation were met with the deaths of human operatives

despite all her comrades falling around her she still stood her ground against the vampire

i had to shoot through her to get to him because he was holding her hostage and my weaponry is not something a human can walk away from

but she had such a will to live that she took my hand and my curse to keep going, to keep living

she's strong, and clever, and i'm lucky to have her in my life

she's been my partner since i turned her, in a work sense

i definitely see her as my daughter rather than anything else

Clearly. That's the second time you've mentioned it. I'm sorry I haven't heard of her before.

I'm eager to get to know her better. I admit, the side you describe is a side of her I haven't yet seen-- but we've had only one conversation, and I think that was a mutually interesting and exciting prospect. Neither of us have ever met a newborn before.