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[ So, this isn't gonna help. ]

Truth or dare.

[And up go the eyebrows.]

Oh?

[Go on.]

[ Noctis wrinkles his nose again, turning his head and essentially burying his face in Rosalind's shoulder. He's that drunk. Drunk enough to hide like a damn child. ]

S'stupid.

I can't.

Yes you can.

[She reaches up, though, her hand snaking behind him so he's more gathered against her. Lightly, she pushes her fingers through his hair and thinks about all the awful little things he might mean.

It's not that she thinks Dante is a bad person, but this seems the perfect set-up for something hideous.]

Tell me.

[ Well, at least she won't have to worry long. Noctis sighs, Rosalind's soothing gestures at least doing enough to ground him a little. God, he really is a big baby when he drinks.

Still, he doesn't want to say it, because it means he'll have to talk about it. Again. Noctis takes a second to try and gather his words despite how wasted he is. But it's because of the alcohol that his mouth opens on it's own. Despite preparation. ]

He, i'unno...

Called me out, I guess. Er tried to. About Prompto.

[Ah. Well. That's not good, but it's better than she was thinking.]

Called you out in what way?

[ ughhhhhh, Ros why? ]

Mmfh...

How it's obvious we're into each other or something.

[WELL YOU ARE, she does not say but most certainly thinks.]

He thinks Prompto is, ah, into you?

[ Hiding his face MORE. ]

And... Vice versa.

Said if we don't stop... Dancin' around it, someone'll end up hurt.

[It's the fact that someone else has seen Prompto looking at Noctis in such a way that interests her, though. Dante could be entirely wrong, of course, but it's still an interesting fact.

He's really burrowing into her, isn't he? She shifts again, tipping her head back as she stares at the wall.]

It's a possibility, certainly, even if you both have the best of intentions.

[ That.. Makes Noctis fall silent. Saying anything further to that would be to admit that he has feelings for Prompto at all and--

Well, while that's a possibility in itself, it's not something he's willing to wager. Prompto is his best friend. And while there have been questionable things that have happened over time, it's all been under the guise of their closeness. It's just how best bros are, right? Noctis has absolutely no prior experience to pull from, and so he's both lost and terrified that he could ruin it.

He doesn't say anything quite yet, silent for what feels like hours until he finally pulls away and looks down to his water bottle. ]

He's straight.

[ Not a confession. Not denial either. ]

Ostensibly, so were you until recently.

[She regrets that the moment she says it. There's an overwhelming chance that he is straight, and it's cruel to lead Noctis on with the promise of maybe. But she's also heard the way Prompto speaks of Noctis; she's watched him time and again, witness to the way he looks when he gets a text from Noctis.

It's not proof. It's hardly anything. But it sticks at her, even so.

She sighs softly and pushes her fingers through his hair again.]

You've options. But I think it would be best to discuss them when you're sober.

[ Much as she might be right about that shred of hope, Noctis ignores it almost immediately. Or at least tries to. He has no business feeling that way about his best friend, and he has to wonder if maybe he's just falling for the pressure of it. It's not the first time someone has suggested that he and Prompto are a bit too close to be considered pals. Dante was just a bit more... Aggressive in his approach, is all.

Would it be a bad thing if he were to be into him? Maybe. Especially if it freaks Prompto out and sends him running. But that's not fair to Prompto either, considering what they've been through together and what Prompto has done for him.

God...

The guy fucking saved his life. There has to be a point where admiration and appreciation crosses some sort of line that he's not even toeing yet, right? And what happens to his own little facade he's been working on for years? That cool and calm demeanor that he was so sure he had down to a polish. It's not at all the case, but he'd felt it at least.

There are a lot of factors that work against him: the fiasco at the gym, the fiasco on this couch that he still hasn't vocalized to Rosalind and never will. Fishing on the lake, the piano at the mall...

Noctis' face starts to burn bright red and despite Rosalind's delicate gesture to his hair, he leans forward with his face in his hands. ]

I don't feel s'good.

I know.

[She watches him for a few seconds, then reaches forward, rubbing his back gently.]

Take a deep breath. Drink some more water if you can.

[And perhaps it would be best if they got off the subject entirely. He seems so miserable, and god knows there's no use in thinking about a subject like this when there's no way the discussion will be productive.]

[ Would it really be all that terrible if he had feelings for Prompto? Is what they've been doing that out of the ordinary for people?

God. No. Wait.

Yes, it would be terrible. Yes. Because Prompto isn't into guys and there's absolutely no way in hell that he has those kinds of feelings for Noctis. He's an attentive friend, it's just how he is. Prompto love his friends. He knows that much, and it would be stupid of him to even assume that those feelings run any further than devoted friendship.

Oh shit.

Oh. Shit.

Noctis isn't sure if this is just the alcohol or his inability to align wholly with socializing, but... No. Dante might be right. Everyone might be right.

If that's the case, then where does that leave him? There's no way things would go any further, there's no other guy out there that he's even remotely interested in. So what? He just powers through this? Remains content with what he has but there's still an underlying loneliness? Something similar to the loneliness he's felt growing up because he was almost completely raised out of a hospital?

Does Noctis harbor feelings for his best friend, or he is just that drunk?

There's no telling, but Noctis is definitely not moving and he's definitely really tense and sick. ]

I'm screwed.

I'm so screwed.

Noctis--

[She sits up as well, her hand still pressed flat against his back. Her voice had been soothing, but that's not working. Time for something a little firmer.]

Noctis. Look at me.

[ He responds to it. The firm tone is enough to pry the absolutely plastered Caelum to turn his head and look up at Rosalind. And he's absolutely lost. It's very much there on his face, because he doesn't want to admit he's got these kind of feelings but he's not sure of them either.

And so, this is a disaster. ]

[God. He looks an utter wreck. Her gaze softens, and she reaches for him, sliding her hand from his back to his face so she can cup his flushed cheek.]

Tell me what you're thinking.

[ He absolutely is. He's a wreck because there's a significant chance that he's probably holding intense feelings for his best friend. His closest friend at that. And the potential behind that is both horrifying and completely unknown. As drunk as he is? He can't articulate whether or not he's merely feeling this because it's been suggested to him so many times.

But then he thinks back to his birthday party. To when they'd played piano in the mall. To waking up to his face and his face only in the hospital.

Rosalind looks at him, carries this calm and gentle voice that only comes out in times like this and he can't help but feel small and childish in the face of it. He's red from the alcohol, but pale from the fear, and so his eyes are naturally glassy while he struggles to steal back that calm and cool facade he's maintained for so many years. Ashamed, he lets his eyes shift downward to his lap. ]

I don't... I don't know.

[ He exhales sharply as he reaches up to pinch the bridge of his nose. ]

He saved my life. Hasn't left my side once, even when I didn't remember his name.

[ He's still slurring horribly. And were it not for the alcohol, he wouldn't even be thinking about this. ]

[Ah. Prompto.]

I know.

[He's obviously leading up to something, and so she keeps it to that. I know, and she bites back something else trite like he cares a great deal about you, because that won't help.]

[ He dials back fast, shaking his head. ]

This's stupid. I'm drunk. Thassit.

I'm not into him like... like that.

Noctis . . .

[God, but she hates that they're doing this while he's drunk, but if she waits for tomorrow, he'll claim he doesn't remember the conversation at all.]

. . . even if it's simply to yourself, there's no use in hiding from the truth.

[ He hides his face in his hands again, leaning forward in his seat. ]

And then what?

Scare 'im off? Make everything weird?

[ He snorts despite himself. ]

Nah.

I didn't say tell him. I said tell yourself. At least admit it to yourself.

[ Noctis sits in silence again, still covering his face.

Eventually, he shakes his head. ]

Uh-uh.

[ Like a petulant child. ]